Pregnant Pause Nine months in Still feel life has to begin. Running round like a blue arsed fly. To stop thinking Oh why ! Oh why ? The time ? It drags by ! Dreams about you still petrify. Haunt my sleeping moments Those I can't deny. Thoughts of you Whether up or lying in bed. Echoing around in my head. Thinking of all the things you said. Knowing I'll never see or hear you speak again. Just the existence of your absence and the pain. Wondering what is the point ? Losing the impetus to live Or how to be happy again. Nine months in Stillborn or reborn ? Life's demands to conform. On a soul that has withdrawn. Just want to be left to mourn. Missing loving, holding and being with you. Praying and hoping Love will see us through. My love as always Philippa♾ Roger xx🌻🌻 16/2/2019